+*DrEaMeR’S dReAmS..*+

jus finish almost all my subject fer o level le..guss did not veri well..hais..jus saw darlin frenster ..i duno i’m in a mixed emotion ..darlin say i fuck care him..which made mie quite sad abt it..i reali do love him ..today i saw darlin frenster le…guss he deleted my pic le ..nvrm ..still put single..y eu lyk dis wan?last tym i put single eu ask mie to put in relatiponship thm in the end i put married ..now eu lyk dis..nvrm .its okies..jus abite sad ar..maybe jealous ba ?haisx ..

eu knw sometym i reali dun dare to ans eu becoz its lyk a bomb anytym will expode we will querall guss is all my fault..but seriously i wan to thx darlin fer bearin wib my attiude  ,frm hre i wan to shout out loud he’s reali a nice guy to be wib ..properbly i did too mani wrong le so darlin dun trust mie anymre..who to be blame?blame it on myself.. he’s sum,one special ..n i really does love him!!..no matter wat i had or done..he’s the only one on my mind ..i dun filrt ard seriously!i mean it!giss darlin also dun believe it too mani mean it le ba….i’m tellin everyone now..jus the matter of trust or not..guss fer him its hard to trust mie anymre n i understand..blame on all my action tht i presented to him ..i had alot of negative point ..beenin wib eu make mie happi..bt i reali dun lyk querall..our happi moments may jus last awhile thn querall again ..so everytym i will cherish the happi moments we had..i’ve been sayin too much sorri n ask too much fer forgiveness..so i understand ppl may get used to it or irriated le ..this may be the reason led to untrust ..i dun wish to shared eu wib others girls..its just tht sumtym i may say sum gamble words..sumtym things i really dun mean it wan..i mean which gals willin to shared it love wann wib other person?dis inclub guy ..bt sumtym he’s rite thts alwais sumthin i cant giv him dis would make him feels bored..i dunno wat to do..i’ve alwais wanted to make it interestin ..bt its seems hard..i cherish dis realtionship..yes i do..n i want to hold ur hand till the end..i duno wat happen to mie..i did soooooooooooo mani wrong things..i guss i treat him not gud..i alwais felt guilty of myself..he’s realli a nice guy n understandin ..sumtym when i recalled i felt happi ..becoz darlin is sensative becoz he love mie..jus as i’m sensative to him too…we both had the same character ..i dun knw eu realise ant?i maybe blurr tht i duno when eu r kiddin n when eu r not..bt sumtym eu also blurr abt it rite?wonderin which wan is i kiddin wan which wan is real wanna..fate is reali hard to say ..rmb the first tym i saw eu ..till now..reali love eu sooooo much !!cant live without eu ..bt i jus dunno wat eu thinkin?fearin tht eu may get bored of mie..jus in mixed emotion..i’ve done lots of bad things toward him..n i knw even those,billion or millon of sorry also cannt over cum his hurt,pain,sadness,dissapointness,angle ..yes he’s rite in wat he told mie be4..i nvr spared a tot fer the others ..how i wish i could faster grow up n be mature as him..i alwais wanted to be a perfect gf fer him bt i knw i cant..no matters wat ..thr is alwasi a betta wan..y am i still so childish ?eileen eileen eileen faster grow up n be a woman..i’m not a girl bt still not yet a woman..doin al the best i could..n cherish every moments…wib him..i’m happi to be wib eu darlin…**love eu <3

today i help my mun to c ur clothin …erm ..saw alots of jewery she had pawn away ..i’m so sad ..nx tym when i grow up i want to let my mum to led a gud life ..i want earn big money fer her ..giv her money to spent ..i so sad …tht feelin was hard to understood ..i promised myself no matter wat i wanna to earn big money fer her … today somethin happen also ..*(him)* say i wanna revenage on him ..i’v gt no mative towards him ..i dunno y he thinks tht way ..i wanted to settle our problem becoz i dun wan a difficult relationship eu see ..bt he took it as a joke ..tht reali make mie sad ..upset .. bt in the end he said sorri to mie .. i read his friendster comments ..i knw his sisters may not lyk mie or maybe i think too much ..bt sumtyms ..its hard to say .. no matter wat .. i need to be strong ..haisx..its been a bad day fer mie today ..

today i querall wib him ..the first tym we querall i’m sorry is mine fault dun angry anymre … i’m serious abt it …i’m jus sayin angry words which i dun mean it …pls i wan take back my words …dun angry …i dun mean it …to force eu jus becoz i dun wan eu to eat dinner alone n lonely …so i ask eu to eat wib jian bing …its okies eu wan hate mie or scold mie its okies.. I’M SORRY

pls kill mie!kill mie! kill mie!!!!pls i’ve done badly fer my eng oral thts the end of mie ..i wanna to cry ..i’m hopeless simple thing also nvr notice how ?thts the end of my life …KILL MIE!!!!!

i wan to be in love bt when its cum to reali askin fer steady i will feel confused coz..i dunno y ?

yes i love him bt when he ask i’m dunno wat to do ..yes i would lyk to hav longlast love bt when it cum to i am confused ..god help mie get ready fer a gud n steady relationship ..

i also dunno who i reali wans to be wib ..i miss who i also not sure ..

i’m a bad lover ..i’m goin insane liao ..i miss him ..who is the him i dunno ..all craps i’m typin wat am i writib ? noone knws ..love?

wat is love ?hais i’m hopeless in love subject ..bye bye my love gotta get concentrated in o levis  ..the day eu went away ..my love !

my fren were all now start studyin i cannt lose to them i nd to study hard ..

jesus give mie the power to remember all the things i wan n understandin thank eu father i love eu jesus..

i did not get into the thrid round qite a pity join again next yr ba ..

haahs recently i sent my pic for the newface n tot of jus playin coz confirm cannt go in de… bt surprisinly i got in man ..they jus kol mie on 10 july dis mornnin ..i was short listed ..dis sat 14 july 2007i will be goin to audition ..my first audition ..ii guss i’m nervous very scared coz will be goin alone my fren will go thr at 10.30am bt it start at 9am ..will guss jus have to giv myself encouragement ..jia you eileen eu can de ..those who wan to support mie can cum to toa payoh ..

i lost my sim card thr ..ai yoh ..bt nvrm ..managed to get the same old number back ..bt sadly lose all my contact sob sob sob ..

after soooooooooooooooo long of workin finally time to hav a break le …goin oversea… will be back on 18 june

tk bb ..